@wesermol -i appreciate your story, its so wonderful to make a connection at such an event as death, particularly death of an almost idol that is in our cases, our fathers lived 93 years plus. Think of the events and inventions they paticipated and witnessed! My father , i thought was especially kind that he lost his mother who was his idol at just 15.I also developed loving friendships with several women who lost a parent very young. those people have such tender hearts.Would your father have suffered great loss as a very young age, i wonder? your story means alot to me, thank you again for helping me by sharing your experience. Hope we keep in touch, it is right that such knowing hearts should stick together. i am mending, my elder sister told me i scared her, knowing hearts usually take dissappointment very hard but process it quickly i believe. I shall always carry his handkerchief and some memories will bring sweet tears, i am trying to obey his instrutins he gave me last year."Please no tears for me, it would please me to see you singing, happy, rejoyceing" i feel that he watches over me, and that just in case he is then he can see that with determination , I am attempting.There is no choice for me, I must believe I will see and be with him again.