knowing what we need
takes knowledge and truth
requires great faith
making our mind up
then fearlessly marching forward...

anyone with a miracle story to share?
it wouldhelp me, and all of us I suspect

You know the play/movie titled, Anna and the King of Siam?
MY reoccurring dream of racing bareback on a horse
most important to reach the next town to warn and to protect THE TOWNSPEOPLE,
hoping to help ? CLOSE, The same story. Both Anna and i MOSTLY altruistic, patient, yet frustrated with Kings tantrums, AND HIS SILLY, petty behaviors.

I am painting canvases, already begun May, trying to post pics of tranistions of work for april and may.(have been without internet) am gardening , both.... with much gusto ....swirled, not beaten please and with joy and love...i have missed my internet and reading my FENDnds...hope this day is especially joyful and sweet for you......

You cried when they pulled you away
for me to rest
So distraught you saw that
they returned you to my scent
Calm, sleeping now,
dreaming, nestled in my breast
So beautiful that I stayed awake
staring, amazed
counting your tiny breaths

It is wrong and unGodly
to not forgive
to ostracize
those who befriended
and who love-loved you
it is mean to not befriend
a neighbor who needs a friend
who is kind and lonely
Jesus says that if we behave this way
he will not recognize us.

I saw him accidently
looking better than
he has aright to be
He flashed
a delicious smile
Incidently
i felt very warm
instant damp
my heart skipped
beating wildly
struggling to compose
a return appropriate gesture
i heard myself say,
" hello sweetie "
needing to escape
his beautiful gaze
i looked away
flushed
blushing
having to look down
turning around
pretending that was my intent
i vanished
not as quickly as needed
i felt unsteady
then, i could not speak at all...

I began the new year with my normal enthusiasm
last year my life became a bit more difficult monetarily
i became even more creative
i remained cheerful
i began each day with promise
each day determined to aid others
i felt satisfied that i had made a difference
the year not horrible
nor was it wonderfully memorable
i pray for a wonderplenty loving enthused year
i am thinking of moving
will miss this house renovated, restored
mostly by these hands
i do not care to preform another restoration
not desire an awful new house without any history
i feel stuck in my convictions
but am beginning to investigate
still have a few large responsibilities
seems to be working and disappearing
under Gods mighty will
i would enjoy a helper
a lover
with many abilities and many interests
sharing many of my own
i do not want
wish not to take care of him physically or monetarily
where is he, O where are you
i am here, right here
we will pray for Egypt together
we will care about the world
the universe
all its species
especially mankind
lets play together
lets travel together
i am here
see me

I am still young and smart
I know how to have fun
I have many interests
Many projects
I am good at being alone
I am tired and bored of being alone
Maybe to date one of the two
very nice men pursuing me
instead of, instead if , instead
waiting,waiting....................w a i t i n g
for that true soul mate
God has for me
O i thought it was you jangel
I saw you last week
your smile, your beautiful smile
put me in a dream for awhile
i have been disappointed lately
odd for me...
Does not mean that I
Cant take other chances
I am tired of taking chances
Thats why I chose to be alone
All this time
I am frustrated waiting
Do not mistake me
My life has NOT been on hold
I am busier
Than anyone has a right to be
If I was not sooo busy
I would perhaps be lonely

I am free
I am falling
No helper
No lover
Cold
Naked
Lonely
No cover
Running
Racing
Faster, faster
Useless use
Of time
I shall not trip
I am free
Solid
Strong
I, I , I am
Falling
Here all alone
Here
Hear me now,
amen

confusions, delusions,reunions
lifetimes are not
complete complicated cinematic
exercises in which
we discover soul
and hone character
it is a richly colored
intricately woven
tapestry of perfect design
there are no accidents
we find with love
our reflection perfected
our true lover
our soul mate
our husband
our best friend
crossing threads
in our universe
with and in eachother
all the time
just believing
gets us there

I feel optimistic and excited approaching 2011.
There are old debts that I shall master and delete
I will have more work, useful rewarding work
I began a new oil charming painting
This holiday i have been continuously creative
I plan to keep time and effort for art this new year
I am cleaning out and reorganizing
the attic to start with...
My energy is excellent
I had been sad that Sissy left again
I have prayed for her and prayed for me
I shall give love and attention to my own life
I will find adventure and wonderfulness
in each day that i pledge to fully participate
there might be some good surprises
for I am blessed
I shall have no one nor nothing to hold me back
God is with me therefore no one can be against me
I am in sinc with our universe
I hope all these ideas, plans , prayers also work for each of you
Welcome to the New Year, let's pledge to make it great and very sweet